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so I spent all morning in radiology this morning to get my ultrasound done. I was having horrible chills and had to sit in there wrapped in a blanket. They are suppossed to call me if they see anything.

I got the boys re enrolled under Pedro today since they are off of Wills insurance now. Went to my moms and tried to sleep while she watched the boys and just kept getting sick.. came home and Keagan went down for a nap so I got Aidan down and got some sleep.. my tempature got up to 102 and I started feeling really achy and I'm starting to wonder if maybe I just got some sort of virus and that it was the virus that Keagan had. No wonder he felt so horrible! I took some night quil and it seemed to help with getting me to sleep and feel a little better but then now I'm all achy again

Aidan seems to be acting perfectly normal.. part of me wonders if his chest pains had to do with the same thing as me.. all though he still has the mild heart murmur more than likely that we have to check into which is scaring me.. so I have to call Monday and make an appointment for that now that I got us all re enrolled..

but over all I'm not dead though I wish I was with the way I'm feeling and Aidan's acting normal for now

things are really not good here.. I need a lot of prayers.. I'm freaking out right now and trying to just stay calm and not think to much of it yet. If it's not one thing it's another.. first Keagan and now us.
Some of you know how I was having severe pain the night of my birthday lua and I got to the point I couldn't move, get up or stretch so pedro laid me down and got me some percuset to try to ease the pain. My pain's gotten worse the last 2 days and I'm having pain when I breath now. I was debating on going to the ER myself..

I'm standing outside talking to my mom and debating on rather I should go in or not and all the sudden Aidan just starts screaming "My tummy hurts My tummy hurts" and was holding his chest gasping for air and trembling! It felt like it was caving in. I tried to calm him down and after a few minutes went on I freaked out because it sounded like it was getting worse and worse for him to breath and had to call 911.. I was so freaked out... it's about the only 10 min of my day I wasn't in pain because I was to busy worrying about if he was having an attack or what!

He calmed down a bit after the ambulance arrived and I was able to take him on my own.. they don't know for sure if he could've had an attack or not because he sounded okay asma wise but said that it sounds like he might have a mild heart murmur (which could be leaking in his heart basically) and I have to schedule a follow up to see if we still hear it and if we do we have to go from there and go through this process of watching it .. it could be mild and it could go as far as surgery or just medication.. I'm scared out of my mind about what could be wrong with him right now!

As for me they were really concerned about my pulse, did some xrays, drew blood, an exam and all the works.. I have to go in for an ultrasound tomorrow and then schedule and OB appointment as they think I might possibly have a cist on my ovaries.

So we'll see ladies.. please keep your prayers with us right now.. oh and go figure we get there and almost wasn't seen because guess what.. we're finally off Wills tricare and are no longer on insurance! So I had to sign a one time thing to be seen and tell them I'd bring in Pedro's info with in 30 days.. I was about to knock someone out if they didn't see my son!

**edited to say** I forgot to tell you guys one of the big reasons we did it so fast is he's not stationed here .. if we are lucky he will get stationed here next month.. if not he's leaving next month and the only way me and the boys could go was to be married and I knew I didn't want to stay behind you know? So that was why the rush.. and a couple of other things just kinda fell into place as of good reasons to why :)

in response to the replies to my wedding post... yes you do have to be divorced to get remarried and Will and my divorce was already final.

As for the quickness of me getting married, as I said before.. I realize some people will be concerned and have a different opinion but like I've always said before no one can really say anything on a situation with out being in it themselves. I talked to many people and some were freaked out by the idea and I had many of my close friends inform me of how they got remarried quickly also to someone who walked in their life in a situation very similar to mine and have been married 10-15 yrs now.. so like I've said to my good personal friends here in person. I thank you for the concern and being a friend to watch out over me but I know what I'm doing and I know what is right for me and my boys and just hope that my true friends realize that and are happy for me like they should be rather they agree or disagree. Every da I feel more and more right about it and wouldn't and won't change a thing

bet you thought I died and fell off the face of the earth huh? lol Well I'm back!!!!

Thursday night was the bachlorrette party which wound up being pretty wild.. we'll just say that my mom wound up picking me up to be safe and waking me up the next day saying "get your drunk @$$ out of bed!" and I was still drunk when I woke up at like noon lol but we had an absolute blast! I never had one before so I was really glad I did this time!

Friday just was a bad day.. I really felt like just saying lets not go to Vegas because it was just going all so bad! I had been rushing around to get ready and get everything done and Thursday wasn't so great since my air conditioner broke and I moved the kids over to my parents and had to pack in the heat with no air.. and then was just really feeling down in the dumps that day over many things. Friday I'm running around trying to get everything done.. we go to pick up the rental car at noon and it's not ready. I get all my packing done and we go to old navy to pick up some pants and my check card declines! I'm like WTF? I just got money in that account.. so come to find out they said there were some defective cards out and they canceled everyone's and sent out new ones. Well good to know seeing as I didn't get mine and I NEEDED access to my money. So they turned it back on. Then we wound up not getting the rental because I didn't realize that we couldn't take it out of state and I opened my mouth about us going out of state not knowing so we wound up having to take my car. Since we had to take it, we needed to change the oil.. everyone in town was packed so Pedro did it himself. By the time we got done with our long day of events we didn't leave town till about 9pm and planned to leave around 6. So we were off schedule. We got to Vegas at 3pm on Saturday and the wedding was scheduled to be at 8:15 and we still had to check into the hotel, get our marriage license, and get showered and cleaned up.. so we were running around like crazy! Pedro forgot his shoes so we had to find him shoes on top of it all!

Our hotel was really nice and we wound up getting everything done just in time for when the limosine arrived. I had never rode in one before so that was an experience! I thought Pedro was seriously going to pass out the whole way there and waiting to get married.. it was the most romantic thing I had ever seen. I have to tell you, in all honesty.. I don't remember ever seeing someone be like that before and it really made me feel like he was so for real about every bit of this even more then I felt before. The marriage license buruel and the chapel we were getting married at was packed. Guess it was a popular day for weddings lol

we played our song Rascal Flatts Blessed Broken Roads during the wedding instead of traditional music and we both read our own vows. His were so much longer than mine which made me feel a little bad but they were wonderful and made me start to cry.. Lori was bawling by the end of it and she doesn't cry at any wedding!  After we went back and had some alone time at the hotel while the girls walked around and then we went out to Coyotte Ugly that night. Let me tell you I was HIGHLY dissapointed because it sucked compared to the movie.. very packed and unorganized lol and Lori and I got asked out of the crowd to get up on the bar and dance and when we refused we were called stuck up! Yeah imagine that.. I turned down going on the bar lmao

Sunday we woke up and went to lunch and basically spent the entire day drinking .. bought this HUGE drink to start the day out with and walked around finishing it lol We went to eat mexican food and Pedro was all talking spanish to that staff and driving me nuts because I didn't know spanish lol apparently the guy told him he had some hot girls with him in spanish haha we spent the afternoon walking around and by the pool. That night we went out to eat at this italian resteraunt at the hotel and Pedro had this guy come serenade me "That's Amora" or how ever you say it.. I got so embarrassed but it was the sweetest thing!

So we made it back about 4am Monday morning.. a lot later than planned but over all the weekend was absolutely wonderful! So romantic but so fun at the same time because we got to have some friends there too! I couldn't be happier and was so ready to get home to my kids! When I got home, I moved Aidna to my bed and he just opened his eyes and said "I missed you" and fell asleep in my arms.. totally warmed my heart!

So anyways I'm back and in the swing of things again now lol Here are a ton of pics from the trip!

Wedding/Honeymoon Pictures -

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/crunchylilmamma@sbcglobal.net/album?.dir=/22d4&.src=ph&.tok=phrVwlDBHE8yYlSZ